White knuckled fists pressed to my lips
Swallowing the pain and the keening scream
So much  hurt, every cell in my body screeching
My heart is broken, my mind numb and broken
Stunned with the knowledge of your death
Let me scream to release the steel band of grief
That brings bile to the throat and cuts the breath.
Maybe if just once I could scream and not be limited
by time or others expectations, if I could just scream
and the pain go away, I could go on.